Since I was old enough to go to school, I was introduced to the idea that my main purpose is to get an education and then get a career. That was kind of where the answers ended.

I sit here at the young age of 23 and find myself where I went wrong. I fell through the cracks and am on the opposite side of the normal path people my age are taking. I feel isolated, afraid, and questioning everything around me. Am I doing this right? Would I feel this way even if I did take the standard path? Why didn’t someone catch my disabilities sooner and help me get the education that was afforded to others?

I have always wanted to think that I was something different. That I was destined to do something above average and to rise above my socioeconomic class but yet here I am. When does the enjoyment happen? When do I get to reach the finish line and not see the idea of working jobs as a form of indentured servitude?

Our current idea of what an ideal society is leaves a lot of people yearning for more. A lot of people have to grind every single day of their lives and know that they will probably never get to sit back and relax and enjoy the life they were given.

If life is such a gift and so beautiful, why are we expected to spend a large majority of it doing the bidding of the people that are above us? The idealistic view of the average American is created and taught to the lower people so they don’t question these things. We are told that this is the best life can get so we don’t start wanting more. Is this constant hamster wheel of working yourself to the bone just to have a roof over your head between shifts something that should be celebrated? Is this the beauty of life? I think not.