A Rambling Post to Remember How to Write!

Hey, everyone! Thanks for sticking with me, even though much hasn’t been posted here lately. I have been busy working a summer job, and then school started back up immediately, so I haven’t had much time to read or write in my free time. I tried to get out the keyboard and type something up a couple of times, but it didn’t feel right. If you have been reading for any length of time on here, you know that I like to talk about some traditionally taboo topics surrounding death positivity. I still feel those things, but that topic takes a really gentle approach and skilled hand to craft a narrative that doesn’t read like a suicide letter. 

I kept writing these things, looking at them, and realizing that whenever my family reads them, they are going to FaceTime me in the middle of the night for a wellness check. I don’t think I am in the right headspace to type something so serious and potentially triggering for my audience. With all of that out of the way, I thought it would be fun to do a little piece about how hard it is to start writing and finding your inner voice after it has been a while since your last writing.

Creating written content takes practice. I don’t say that to sound snobby; it just takes some time to get your head in a place where you can create thoughts that others care to read. I’m not sure if it has to do with your self-concept or maybe the process of creating internal dialogue, but if you haven’t written for a while, it really takes a while to get started again. I’m saying that as someone with 3 drafts saved right now that weren’t good enough to post. 

In order to have some content to write and an incentive to finish reading, I will create a series of book reviews, starting with the Dune books. I know that these books are “narratively dense” (the most flattering way I could describe their pacing) but I hope I can create a review that is interesting enough to read. I feel like I am being held hostage by that series right now, but I am too far to stop reading now, and I don’t want to feel like I abandoned something after making it so far in. I will start with Heretics of Dune (book 5) since that is the one I am currently reading, and then once book 6 is done, I’ll try to backtrack and give you my thoughts as best I can remember.

The other topic I plan on covering is my path through my summer job. It was a beneficial and challenging time for me in some unique ways that would be interesting to share. Whenever your self-concept becomes that of a student, it is really hard to step back into an old work environment with your old coworkers who remember you from a year ago and try to fit back into that social system. I found myself socially reverting to fit in better, and now that school is back in session, I had to hit the fast-forward button really quickly and get back where I wanted to be.

Well, thanks for getting to the end! I know this one could have stayed in the drafts too but I really just wanted to remember how it felt to type something up and have it read by other people. It’s a kind of fuel to keep going.

I hope you all had a great summer and I can’t wait to speak to you again soon. 🙂